Wednesday, March 07, 2007
SO WRONG???
Something i read in Jo's blog and the recent events happening to frens i noe made me think..Have you ever felt like when something happens to you it seems that in a way most of your frens in your circle seemed to be going through the same thing some way or another??The other day me ad Kristin were talking bout this and we realised how true it all was.The other time when we were having boy issues it seemed like all our other girlfriends were facing the same problems in a way!It was crazy when we all started to open up!!My gosh..the world had become officially scary that day..hehe..Now about the whole affair thingie..I felt like it was just me but when i looked around, just like what Jo had said in her blog, we were all doing it.Most of us were the third parties and the others were the unfaithful parties..and of coz there were the few which were a little of both *ahem* Its funny coz if you had told me weeks or even days ago that i was to be having an affair i would have told you something sarcastic like "n yea the sky is so high and pigs can fly!" But gosh i was so bloody wrong about my own self!Archana Das, there are many times in life were you even manage to amuse your self!Anyways yesterday afternoon after class he came to my apartment and we were sitting on the stairs just chatting and cudling while he was on his phone with his mum then before he left he gave me pecks on my cheek..She(his gf) had gone out with her frens to MidValley.Outta the blue he gets a call from her frens after the whole gang had had kfc for dinner asking him to come to the guardhouse and see her coz she was drunk.She supposedly had gone to Chilli"s and had two margarita's and she was drunk already!It was like so drama with her coz one minute she was laughing and the next she was angry and upset!Whoa..thank god i so wasn't there!I felt damn bad so i told him i don't think i could do this anymore coz like he affected her so much where the past few days after confessing to me he hadn't been sms-ing her and stuff so she felt like something was wrong..If he affected her that much it could only mean one thing..that she has fallen pretty deep for him!And that made me feel bloody guilty..i told him i will walk away.I mean it was his decision right in the damn place to ASSUME how i felt and got together with her!So i told them that they both needed to talk coz it was dumb, the whole situation!And i left and went to bed..(sleeping is the best thing you could do at times like this trust me!)Then at 4am he calls me saying he was outside so i went outside my apartment and he told me that it was over.She asked him if he wanted to break up and when he asked her what she wanted she said she didnt but at the same time when he goes to Russia and study in September she wasnt willing to wait for him..Personally i dont blame her oso,they barely know each other..So then i went back to bed coz i was bloody damn sleepy and he smsed saying that he wants me and that he wants me, he doesnt want me to leave him and that he hopes for a long-term relationship together ..So i told him that all this mess happened coz he jumped into a relationship but thats not how i do things..Let the three months pass by as we planned and we'd take things one step at a time..Lifes just a lil' too short for me to rush into everything at once.So yea..i started off this post being a bitch coz he was attached and now hes single again..but i still have Raynard in the picture!Goddammit!Either way im a full bitch!Why does my life always have to be full of drama??Haih..I dont know how to break up and that currently just sucks la big time!Haiyo!!I think im starting to disappoint myself..Making everything so messed up just seems like it smy latest hobby or something..God help my soul!
And oh..To all my gurlfrens: Desiree,Jolyn,Jas,Lydia,Kristin,Amanda,Adeline.Tasha,Kim,Mel,Xin,Fangie..and everyone i know and love..I MISS YOU PEEPS LOADS!!!!!!!!!!
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